BIsmillahir Rahmanir Rahim
your head is as hard as chinese arithmatic. you don't listen. now here you are stressin over something that was so easy to fix.....all the answers were in your face the whole time. but no, you have to be the one to act on your own terms. now here you are again, in that place that begs the question "how the hell did i get here?" you ask over and over again, "what did i do to get here?" you ask this foolishly cuz you know exactly what you did to get there. and now again you sit, in that place that cries out in painful dispair "how can i fix this?" "what can i do to get myself out of this mess?" you moan and plead "please GOD, help me! i will never do this again if i make it through this time!" do you really believe that promise you just made? no, you can't possibly think that if you actually make it through that you won't be stupid like this again.....
stop playin!! you are fooling no one but yourself. you have convinced yourself that you are capable of doing this on your own. and that dumb rationalization is why you keep gettin into trouble. just recognize that your power is so limited that there is nothing you should try to do on your own. seek guidance from The Best Knower. The One who knows all the hidden matter cuz you know nothing. when you do this, you will find yourself in that place of pain misery and dispair less often, and see youself on a beautiful journey towards Paradise!
As-salaamu alaikum wa rahmatullahi wa baraktuhu
