Life Adjustment

Life adjustment began when I chose to marry not only out of my own country but out of my own culture as well. Moving from America to the other side of the world was bold but getting married on top of that, what was I thinking. So my adjusting begins. It is not so bad, I live in Egypt now, so it is not as easy as going to McDonalds or driving to see my favorite flick, it is an adjustment. But must I add I converted from being a Christian to Muslim, that on top of everything else is a huge adjustment because now, fast food is tricky. Not to mention going to see my favorite flick, that is unacceptable. Hmmm, do I feel I made a mistake, no, not marrying the man I love, but I do feel and have been feeling somewhat overwhelmed and trapped. I feel at times I want to scream, run out of the house and be free. Free to do what I want as I was used to doing, being able to drive and visit my friends. I left everything, a good paying job, friends, family, everything for this man. I have no regrets, but adjusting is hard and am doing the best I can, and this is why I began this blog, I will keep all my feelings written here, because it is hard for me to tell anyone about my feelings, my fears, my confusion. Yes I feel so confused at times, so lost. I have no one to talk with. All my friends back home are so worried, I cannot tell them anything but that I am doing great. As for my family well let me say if my friends are worried, what does that tell you about my family fearing for me....lol.....so again, I tell them all,, I am great, loving it, things couldn't be better. My poor husband ask everyday if am happy, I tell him yes. I am not lying, I am happy, but he does not understand or comprehend what I mean when I say am confused, I feel lost, trapped, etc....he just wants to know if I am happy, that I am so once again, this is why am writing here. If anyone wants to comment and give me some peace of mind or words of wisdom, please I would very much be open to that. My marriage did not start off on the right foot, I am beginning to find out many things as many of us do when we marry. In two days I will celebrate two months of marriage. I will write different areas of how my marriage is going what I am doing so maybe by writing my feelings down, anger, frustration, and so on, will help me adjust better here. I am feeling torn right now and I will say why in another blog.